3AM thoughts

Deep, soulless eyes,empty while filled with pain,
Sharp spikes of lightining piercing through the pouring rain;
Lying on my bed in the middle of the night,
trying vainly to sleep as i swallow down my fright;
I dont understand why i'm so filled with fear,
even though i know that he's nowhere near;
I cant bear this pain i feel,
it so overwhelming its surreal;
Feeling the tears pouring down my cheeks,
hating myself for being so damn weak;
i wish i could share the secret i keep,
but the lump in my throat wont let me speak;
My heart is brimming with dispair,
and its like i dont even care;
Life is a prison in which im forced to dwell,
or maybe i'm dead and this is really hell.